adjusting to a new normal.

i've stared and stopped. decided and decided against blogging about this. i'm just going to do it already.

i don't think it's a secret that i'm once again single. i forgot how bad the fall out of a relationship sucks. i mean like really, really, sucks..... the last few months of my life have been dictate by someone else's schedule. i loved it. someone to be with after work. a weekend buddy. going to all those family things with someone by my side. it was great. now i'm adjusting back to my single selfish life. i thought i was out of the dating scene, and truth be told i was pretty sure i was out of it for good....the sheer thought of dating again is almost enough to send me into the fetal position. through the ups and downs of this relationship i  did learn something i needed to. i used to think that being single is just easier. while it is true, i realized how much better {not necessarily easier} it is to have someone. thank heavens i had that realization, or honestly i would swear off dating entirely.

as hard as this past week has been, i've felt unreal peace. although i have no idea why things had to happen this way, i have felt peace knowing things are going to work out. i have been so blessed with so many good people in my life. {i don't think a day has gone by without receiving a text from nashville asking me how i'm holding up.} it's helped me understand that even in the face of trails, we are given the tools we need to endure them. i've kept telling myself i can't ask why? only what? i'm beginning to see and realize we learn the very most in the very least of circumstances.

so here is to adjusting to a new normal. {and by new i mean the old normal.}

hey now that i've finally gotten this off my chest, what do you say i finally work on my europe post?!