how i ended up here.

let me tell you all a story.

2 years ago {almost 3 now} i moved back up to salt lake from st. george. i lived at home for a bit then moved in with my sister jill, in just a few short months she met her husband and i was once again looking for a place to live. amy suggested i moved into their basement, but i was working in draper at the time, and the commute didn't appeal to me. within a week of jill being engaged a position posted for a loan officer at our research park office.{which had been posted as an assistant manager position, but i wasn't qualified to apply for} i asked amy if she was serious about me living their before i applied for the position, she and trent talked and the offer was on the table. i applied for the position, interviewed, and a week later i had the job. within just another couple of months jill got married and i moved into trent and amy's home.

me ending up at the branch i'm at has been such a blessing in and of it's self. i've had the opportunity to advance through the company. i have a manager who has taken the time to invest in me and help me learn along the way. i've experienced promotions, trainings, raises, set backs, received awards and the chance to really push myself. i love my job and consider it a blessing in my life.

me ending up at trent and amy's and being where i am with my job is no happenstance. i can see so clearly the lord's hand in me being where i am in life. living at trent and amy's has been such a blessing, their kids have truly become my own, in fact i often refere to them as "my kids". i'm so grateful for this time in my life to be a part of their lives. i hope and pray that these sweet kids will have fond memories of me living with them. i don't fully know how to articulate my thoughts on the love i feel for these kids. all i know is i feel like i have a glimpse of what it must feel like to be a parent, to have a deep unconditional love for another human being.

i know things ended up the way they did for a reason. things don't just end up this good without a little help from upstairs.

{by the way, while i was writing this paige and morgan were sitting next to me asking me if they "dared them" to touch the keys... they thought they were pretty hilarious, me, not so much.}

Down for the count.

The 24 hour (I'm hoping that's all it is) stomach flu hit me with a vengeance this morning. For the greater part of today everything I've consumed had come right back up, including a sip of water. I've been so miserable that I haven't even been able to sleep today. After an awful 15 hours I'm beginning to feel like I'm on the mend, thank heavens. Today has made me so grateful for the health that I so abundantly enjoy! I thought so many different times today of those who are continually sick, seriously, good health is such a blessing! Here's to hoping the bug is on its way out of my system!

2012

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i've thought long and hard about what i want to work on in 2012. i've never been one to make new year's resolutions, but i decided this would be a good year to start. as i took inventory on my life and the things i need to improve on i decided patience, both with myself and especially others, is something that could use some serious work. as it thought more about patience i thought it ironic how quickly we as humans lose patience with one another. we for one reason or another assume that those around us are not trying, or being malicious in their actions. why is that? why are we so quick to assume the worst in those around us? on the flip side, when those around us become impatient with us, we expect them to understand that we are trying our hardest and our best. we beg for patience and understanding. ironic, isn't it.

i need to remind myself that there is not one of us who isn't silently fighting a hard battle. we are all here experiencing this crazy thing called life and doing the best we can to lead good lives. i think back to the people that i have been unkind to for one reason or another and hurt thinking about what they might possibly be going through. i never want to hinder those i come in contact with, but rather buoy them up. i want to be recognized as a good person and a good friend.

i most certainly have my work cutout for me, this was without a doubt the most difficult resolution i set... but without a doubt the most worthy one.