just a coupla things.

• we now have candy canes instead of tiger pops at the credit union, which can only mean one thing, christmas is here! without a doubt christmas is my most favorite time of year! i just want to soak in every minute of this season.
• i generally shy away from fashion blogs and posts because who am i to say what one should or shouldn't wear. fashion is all about finding out what you like and what works for you... however, after a weekend shopping with my sisters i have just one thing to say. ed hardy and juicy couture are a serious DON'T! ok, i'm done.
• i love, and i mean love my job. {at least most the time} i can see the lord's hand in me ending up where i am, thank goodness for unanswered prayers.
• the sweet lady i work in nursery with called me yesterday to invite me over to sunday dinner. you see, she has two single sons she wants to line me up with and wanted me to come over so i could decided on whom i wanted to go out with. that was just a little too weird for me, so i politely declined. her efforts are appreciated though.
• i bought the "color code" book at the d.i. a few months ago. {you know, the one that tells you if you are a red, blue, white, or yellow}  i have been making everyone i know take it! the simple joys.
• running has come to a screeching halt! i ran a 5k on thanksgiving and nearly died... i need to get my sorry butt running, i. just. don't. want. to!
• something is wrong with the breaks on my car and i just don't want to take it in because i know they are going to tell me they can fix it for a coupla hundred dollars. i hate owning a car. money pit.
• i paid $3.12 for gas tonight, that was a welcome surprise.
• i was in st. george last week and didn't even get a 25 and main cupcake, what?!
• it's safe to say i over spent this past weekend. why can't money grow on trees? i would like the record to show that if i did have a money tree i would share it's fruits with all you fine people!
• my father, brothers, and brother-in-laws are a reminder of the caliber of men that are out there.
• it always amazes me how much i love me nieces and nephews. i can't imagine loving anyone more than i love those kids. i'm probably going to burst when i have my own sweet babies.
• sometimes i'm in awe with all that i am blessed with, i don't know what i did to deserve all that i have been given, but i am so grateful.
• my name is brooke jensen, and i am a mormom. {have you guys seen those new commercials? i love them, and secretly want to be in one.}
• does anyone else find it ironic that neil diamond is jewish and has a christmas album? just something to think about.

that's it ya'll! have a happy week!

i got my bases covered

diet coke, m&m's, silly putty, and hand sanitizer.

what else do you need to get through a day of work?

one way communcation

life has been such a frustration lately. i've been so over whelmed and feel like i've been taken to the max. it just doesn't seem like there are enough hours in the day lately. i don't have the time to do everything i'd like to do, or need to do. instead i have to prioritize, and my top two priorities right now are work and school, yuck! i feel like i've been a bad friend., a sub-par student and employee, and not the person i know i'm really capable of being, feeling extremely inadequate. needless to say, i've been really hard on myself, and just down on life in general. sometimes leading such a busy life gets super lonely, and i forget to make the time in the day to actually have a conversation with someone, including my heavenly father.

seeing is that i'm in nursery i don't seem to get much out of church, however yesterday was the exception.... it was our primary program, and the kids sang "a child's prayer" one of my favorite songs. the second verse brought me to tears and was a tender mercy from my heavenly father letting me know he's there and willing to listen.

"pray, he is there.
speak, he is listening.
you are his child.
his love now surrounds you.
he hears your prayers.
he loves the children,
of souch is the kingdom.
the kingdom of heave'n"

i'm so grateful i have a heavenly father that speaks to me, even when i don't always speak to him.

the crowing moment.

it has been a week. a rough week.
and to top it all off, tonight happened.

i went out for a run right when i got home from work.
i left once and remembered i left my garmin watch, so i ran back in.
then i remembered i didn't have my ipod, so i ran back in.
already off to a bad start.
i drove down to my favorite route and began my run.
just before i hit mile one i ate it.
i don't know what i tripped over, but suddenly i was falling.
i hit the pavement and it hurt. my hands started stinging, and my knee was throbbing.
i was kind of in shock, so i quickly stood up, and tried to brush it off.
i thought i would just hurry and run back to my car, but after about 5 steps i knew that wasn't going to be happening... me knee hurt too bad.
i slowly made my way back to the car, all while trying to fight back tears, then it started to rain.
{guys, i can't make this stuff up.}
i called my mom, and just lost it. i couldn't hold back tears anymore and just sobbed.
she talked to me while i made my way back to the car.
i got in the car, hung up the phone, and then i really lost it.

i walked in the door and my people were all in the kitchen, amy was a trooper and got some tweezers and picked the pavement out of my hand.... all while the little people hugged my legs and told me they "wuved" me.

i know my hand and knee will get better but the thing that won't get better are my brand spakin new {worn once, $133.} running shoes. really, it just makes me want to cry all over again...

i think it's safe to say i've hit rock bottom this week. which means, there is no where to go but up.

tonight

i'm grateful for "my kids".

even on the worst of days, they can make the world right.

and for that, i love them infinitely!

seriously... what's not to love?

what is wrong with me?!

you guys, i seriously have a problem....
every ounce of motivation i once possessed is gone. g.o.n.e. don't believe me? let me give you a few examples.

• last week i had a homework assignment due, i went into my room to do it.... well i ended up laying on my bed watching friends. homework assignment? yet to be done.
• saturday i got my hair done, didn't wash it until last night, that's 4 days folks. sick.
• i've gone running once, yes once, since ragnar. so much for training for my half marathon in january.
• i have neglected texting pretty much everyone back.
• tonight instead of running i laid on my bed and ate a Popsicle.
• all i want to do is sleep. for. reals.

i think you get the point right? i don't know what's wrong with me. it's not like i don't have a million things to do, for some reason i just can't find the motivation to do any of it. then i just slip further behind and feel even less motivation to get caught up. it's actually a vicious cycle. i'm just a mess right now, but can't seem to get myself out of this funk. i've decided to blame the fact that it stays dark until 8 every morning now. seriously, can't a girl catch a break?!