japan

i've been trying to think of something to blog about all day...
and i just keep coming back to this.

i have been glued to any media outlet providing coverage of the tragedy that continues to unfold in japan.

it's the most devastating thing i've ever seen.

my heart aches for anyone effect by the devastation.

i can't help but cry when i watch the footage.

it's hard to understand why something like happens.

but then i remember there is a perfect all loving god.

who hears and answers prayers.

so while i can't do anything to physically help them.

i will continue to pray for them.

i'm yours for the taking.

i've always had a thing for matt damon.

would you just look at him? ah, i die.

tonight bridge and i went and saw 'the adjustment bureau'....

the movie? sub par.

matt damon? seriously. i was drooling.

i think briget wanted to hit me 15 minutes into the movie, i kept leaning over saying...

"he is SO cute."

"look at him. he kills me."

"i love him."

"i want to kiss him."

matt, your my number one hollywood boyfriend.

if you'll have me, i'm yours for the taking...

seriously guys. he. is. so. dreamy.

really!

i'm going to go make 'i heart matt' shirts.

sigh...

just you wait.

{print found here}

i'll be honest. i've been surprised and disappointed with people's response to the project.

most people have responded with,

"there's no way"

"ya, right."

"i give it a week."

"you can't do it."

well i'm here to tell you:

I CAN.

AND I WILL.

i can't wait to prove you all wrong.

thanks for having such little faith in me.

the project.

{heaven help me.}

it all started with this woman, and her will power to give up shopping for an ENTIRE year. bless her heart.

aubry heard about "the project" and decided to try it herself for a month.

she's done outstanding. even enduring multiple shopping trips watching me spend and spend and keeping her card in her wallet. bravo.

two saturdays ago i had a retail shopping therapy session like you wouldn't believe.

honestly, i don't know who i was! anything i saw that i remotely wanted i bought.

a couple hundred dollars later, i was home looking at my purchases, and the thrill of shopping gone.

just like an alcoholic drinks to numb the pain... i decided i shop the pain away.

shopping must release endorphins or something, i can't explain it, but it's honestly a high for me.

after returning the vast majority of my purchases of my shopping binge, i decided it was my turn to join

'the project'.

rather than vowing a year like elizabeth. or a month like aubry.

i start today and end may 10th.

why may 10th?

 i leave for europe on 11th and can celebrate my victory in style!

the rules, according to the master...

things i can't buy:

• clothing
• accessories
• jewelry
• shoes
• purses
• magazines
• cd's
• dvd's
• craft supplies
• fast food
• "non-essential" fun beauty expenses.
• frou frou coffee shop coffee {like aubry this equals diet coke}

things i can buy:

• a good haircut
• makeup
• a meal at a lovely restaurant with family and friends
• frou frou coffee shop coffee with friends. {once again we equate this to diet coke}
• classes
• gym
• gifts for family and friends
• charitable contributions to organizations we currently support. {guess this doesn't get me out of tithing}

no doubt this will. be. hard. for. me.

i'm an emotional shopper.

seriously i will need all the help and support i can get!

here goes nothing....

dear spring,

PLEASE GET HERE!

love, brooke

do you believe in destiny?

i do.

here's why....

last week while at nordstrom i saw these shoes.... to die for, right? i knew if i tried them on i would want them. so i did the mature adult thing and just walked away. i'd be lying if i said i didn't think about them more than a few times this week.... yesterday i was at nordstrom again and decided i might as well try them on... only this time they were no where to be found. i asked one of the workers if they still had them, she didn't think so, but she said she would check. she came about out said said, "we only have 1 pair left, and they are a size 8." HOLY HECK! that's MY size!

it was destiny that i got those shoes.

i mean that doesn't "just" happen

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sound advice

this is an e-mail conversation that took place between a co-worker and i:

cw: i know you are so sad i'm leaving.
b: i am sad, but i can't expect everyone to be a lifer at the credit union with me.
cw: oh don't worry. you won't be a lifer.
b: that's right, i won't be. i will find a rich husband and never work another day in my life....
cw: that is a solid life goal. i'm not even joking. marry for love? no. marry for wealth & stability? absolutely.



i will take that advice with a grain of salt.

at long last...

after 4 long years, i finally made it back up to the slopes.

i was worried my body wouldn't remember how to snowboard, but was pleasantly surprised with how quickly it all came back to me... like riding a bike.

{which i also haven't done in 6 years}

the conditions were perfect.

i forget how beautiful those resorts are.

i only took 3 spills, and only let 2 curse words fly.

my body is already aching.... tomorrow will be a treat.

thanks to buddy justin for the invite.

 i probably wouldn't have made it up there this year otherwise.

boys {&} banana eyes

aubry: have you heard from "him"?
brooke: nope. not a word.
aubry: you're done, right? if you talk to him the only thing to tell him is you deserve better than to be a participant in his life when and if he chooses.

there's not much more to say. i won't try to understand something i just don't.
as forest gump once said, "and that's all i have to say about that."


on a happier note....
it should surprise no one that i bought 'goldenrod' with my mac credit.
i read in glamour this past week 'banana eyes' are the spring look....
so i got me some banana eyes.
and the possibilities are literally endless.

i promise... it's somethin' else on.

oscar night...

i did my homework for the oscars, seeing the vast majority of the pictures up for nomination. the only two i didn't get to, the fighter and the king's speech. overall they went about like i thought they would.... i was hoping king's speech wouldn't take best picture, but that was probably because i hadn't seen it. here is my overview of oscar night....

the highlights:

• james franco. loved everything about him. i was rooting for him for best actor.
• colin firth's endearing acceptance speech.
• as always, the red carpet glam.
• natalie portman winning best actress.
• kirk douglas presenting the best support actress award.
• THIS

the lowlights:

• anne hathaway.... she was awful. not funny. immature. and that blue dress?! blah.
• king's speech wining best picture... like i said, i'm probably bias because i saw almost every over movie.
• anne hathaway's monologues.
• james franco not winning best actor.
• am i the only one that missed all the huge jackman jokes?

the sum it up.... james franco is my new hollywood boyfriend. we made it official tonight. anne hathaway... no thank you.

is this week over yet?

today i was supposed to wake up in logan. away from my life. away from my problems. ready for a full fun day of bridget.
instead i woke up in my bed. with no plan. no one to spend my day with. feeling sorry for myself. 

this week has been a rough one. i have no idea how it isn't over yet..... i faced the week with courage and optimism. that allllll came crashing down last night. a WINTER STORM WARNING stopped my in my tracks. so today i'm just sad. tired. annoyed. frustrated.

i'll get out of bed, unpack my weekend bag, get ready for the day, head to the mac counter, do some homework, play with the kiddos, and call it a day. {i'm sure there will be wallowing in self pity in there somewhere, & lots of diet coke.}

is it may 11th yet?

wednesday night thoughts.

• i have no idea how my room can get SO messy SO fast. monday afternoon my room was spotless. i've been home and awake for maybe 5 hours of the last 48. how does this happen?!
• two words. curve. ball.
• i have a sick obsession with shopping. when i was putting my clothes away tonight i realized i had 4 yellow cardigans that are almost the exact same color. only differences? what the are embellished with, and where the ruffles are located.
• it was a year ago all this was happening. i was convinced that i would never stop hurting. slowly the pain of it all went away. i'm happy to say that today i'm genuinely happy for him, and so grateful for my own personal progress through it all.
• there are few things i hate more than getting ready {you know hair, makeup, dressed the whole bit, i'm sure that surprises most of you}. there are even fewer things i hate more than getting ready on a day off.
• logan this weekend with bridge. snowshoeing, shopping, eating, aggie basketball. can't wait.
• i hope that whoever i marry got straight A's in ironing in the MTC.... not only do i hate ironing, but i'm awful at it. aw.ful. seriously, how do you iron a sleeve without creasing the other side of the sleeve?
• how in the h.e.double hockey sticks do you fold a fitted sheet?
• be patient with people. you just NEVER know the burdens they are silently bearing.
• i've made a goal not to swear. i never realized how much i swore until i stopped.
• i'm a neat freak. i need everything to be in it's proper place.
• i went to a utah basketball game last night. blah. nothing to be excited about.
• spring fever has hit. i'm dying for winter to be over. i want the yucky black piles of snow gone. i want to see bright colors everywhere i look. i want to put a skirt on, and not worry about tights. i'm sick of wearing coats. i want to be outside, enjoying nature. i want to feel the warmth of the sun on my body when i walk outside. i want to spend my saturdays walking up and down the aisles of farmer's market. green grass and flowers..... i better stop now before i burst into tears.
• monday i was reminded why public pools are so disgusting.
• i thought i bombed my humanities test last week, turns out i got a B. i'll take it.
• people are always asking me if i'm never going to have kids because of the sheer amount of time i spend with them. truth be told, i can't wait.
• "faith in something greater than ourselves enables us to do what we have said we will do, to press forward when we are tired or hurt or afraid, to keep going when the challenge seems overwhelming and the course entirely uncertain." -president hinckley

wishing i was anywhere but here...

i'd take any of the following places....

new york, new york

santee alley: los angles, ca

disneyland

lucerne, switzerland

maui, hawaii

disneyland.
seriously the happiest place on earth.

cabo san lucas, mexico

new port beach, ca

is winter over yet?!

no more bad days.

i'll be the first to admit i'm an emotion driven person.

what can i say? i'm a blue personality through and through.

soooo.....sometimes i have a hard time letting go,

and allowing the pieces to fall where they may.

i wish more than anything i could learn to chilax.

but alas, it's part of who i am.

good. or bad.

today was one of those days i was fighting to roll with the punches.

at lunch i ran into one of my favorite stores, bloomingssales.

i can across this little book, and since i'm a firm believer shopping makes me feel better,

i bought it.

for those of you who don't know, i get to spend the latter half of may in london and paris with my mom.

i figured this book could be my catch all of:

packing lists.

to do lists.

travel lists.

clothing lists.

DO NOT FORGET lists.

you know, all the things that go into preparing for a trip.

so no more bad days.

{and if i'm tempted to have one, i'll stare at this book}

heck! i'm going to europe!