when i get to the other side the first thing i'm going to do is ask why. "why are women wired the way we are?" it just doesn't seem fair that we get to deal with the emotional and physical aspects of womanhood. now don't get me wrong, i feel so grateful to be a women, and feel blessed to understand the unique role of women in god's works. but... the emotions. oh the emotions.... especially when it comes to boys.... which brings me to the subject of my blog... boys.
i have a few thoughts i want to share, and i don't know how best to discuss them other than just throwing them out there... so here goes nothing.
- i have tired my entire life to be doing the right things, at the right times, and do the best that i can. i know i'm not perfect, but that doesn't mean i don't try. it's SO frustrating to be passed up time and time again for girls that are just a pretty face. all growing up my mom always told me, "someday boys will understand that there are more important things than looks." i'm ready for that day.
- ASK GIRLS OUT ALREADY! dating is kind of a helpless thing when your a girl. you wait. you wait for a guy to ask you out. i recently read a quote by marvin j. ashton, "to marriageable, mature men, i call them unto repentance. do not procrastinate the day of your repentance. believe us when we tell you there is someone for you and god will help you find her. i have little patience for a marriageable, mature man who hasn't found "miss perfect"." i can't say it any better.
- why don't boys care like we do? recently a boy broke. my. heart. i was talking to aubry last night telling her that i was almost grateful for how he treated me because it made moving on easier. how backwards is that? boys have to hit all time lows for girls to feel like they are ok to move on without them....not only that, but i still held on for so long. he had moved on and didn't care anymore, i wasn't even a thought in his mind. and me? i was left to mend a broken heart.
- dating is hard for me. {i won't sugar coat it} i've never been confident when it comes to boys, and don't even get me started on first dates. i'm awkward. {any advice here?} first dates are such a gamble. you try to put your best foot forward, but if you don't do well enough, there's not a follow up.
- i know me, i know who i am, how i am, and my heart. there have been so many times that i look at boys that aren't interest and i just want to scream, "if you only would take the time to get to know me! if you would give me a chance! if you would take a second look. you would see that i'm brooke. wonderful. happy. kind hearted. well intentioned brooke. and someday i will make some man the happiest man in the world!"then i get passed up for boobs....
- i am who i am, and i won't change it for any boy... although sometimes i wonder, if i became someone i'm not, would i be someone worth having?
- i try not to get down on myself for not dating, but that can be hard. how am i supposed to feel when guys aren't asking me out? or when i go on a date and never hear anything more? how do i not take that to heart... then i remember another quote by marvin j. ashton, "the real fun of life is in overcoming obstacles while still happily hoping everything will work out." remember that always brooke.
i know what everyone will think when they read this....why is brooke so anxious to get married? or.... i remember feeling that same way when i was single, but it was so worth the wait to find my mate.... the list could go on and on. but this is MY blog so i get to blog what's on my mind! {and please don't leave a comment like the second one, i really don't want to hear it.} dating is just hard. that's all there is to it. i'm certainly not giving up.... and one day i'm SURE it will all be worth it. but for now, i endure the emotions that are part of womanhood, and continue working my way through boys to find that man that will be mine. i've been promised i'll find him, and it will all be worth every broken heart, dateless night, and tear i've cried.
4 comments:
I always appreciate a good blog vomit. I'm not the only one.
I also appreciate a good sss (thats short for same side sitter) story. I thank your awkward first date for that bullet point of a contribution to this post.
Sorry that dating sucks. But I am glad you are around. We love having Brooke with us.
And if you ever want to go on a sister-wife date let me know. I won't put out like a boy, but we can have some good food laughs.
Oh Gorgeous Brooke! I wish I could tell you that everything is going to be all right, but men are the same as boys - that doesn't change, but you change and tastes change and you will one day be seeing it from the other side. I have no worries, but I so know how you feel. It is the plight of women to care about relationships more than the men with whom they have the relationship appear to care. The system is totally whacked! Need i say more!
Well said my friend. Well said. Keep your head up.
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