time

have you ever thought about time. how it's always moving. you can never get it back. when all is said and done you only have the memories? for some reason the concept of time has been on my mind a lot lately. it makes me heart-sick to think that i'll never get certain moments back. i will never be able to relive or recreate special events in my life. i will always have those memories, and pictures from a lot of events, but i can't experience them again. i can remember so vividly the day i drove to college. i remember laying in bed that night realizing that the chapter of my childhood had been closed. i could always go home, but it would never be what it once was. i was heart-sick. i remember the day i left dixie to move back home. i remember watching st. george slowly disappear in my rear view mirror having the same heart-sick feeling. life is constantly changing and evolving. it's funny, i always catch myself longing for the next phase of life, but then when it comes i don't want to let go of the now. {because i know if i do, i won't get it back}i need to do better at appreciating the here and now, because it won't always be here. i can't think of a single time in life when the next phase of life has presented itself, and i haven't looked backed and wished i'd only appreciated it a little bit more. but i guess that the trick of life. learning to love and embrace where you are in life, knowing the next phase will come. it always does.

life is good. it is oh so good. and real {deep, inner} happiness comes from being happy in whichever circumstances you find yourself, don't waste life waiting around for what comes next.

"a quality life is God’s greatest wish for us. life is to be lived well in whatever circumstances we find ourselves. there should not be a waiting period."
-marvin j. ashton.