boys {&} banana eyes

aubry: have you heard from "him"?
brooke: nope. not a word.
aubry: you're done, right? if you talk to him the only thing to tell him is you deserve better than to be a participant in his life when and if he chooses.

there's not much more to say. i won't try to understand something i just don't.
as forest gump once said, "and that's all i have to say about that."


on a happier note....
it should surprise no one that i bought 'goldenrod' with my mac credit.
i read in glamour this past week 'banana eyes' are the spring look....
so i got me some banana eyes.
and the possibilities are literally endless.

i promise... it's somethin' else on.

oscar night...

i did my homework for the oscars, seeing the vast majority of the pictures up for nomination. the only two i didn't get to, the fighter and the king's speech. overall they went about like i thought they would.... i was hoping king's speech wouldn't take best picture, but that was probably because i hadn't seen it. here is my overview of oscar night....

the highlights:

• james franco. loved everything about him. i was rooting for him for best actor.
• colin firth's endearing acceptance speech.
• as always, the red carpet glam.
• natalie portman winning best actress.
• kirk douglas presenting the best support actress award.
• THIS

the lowlights:

• anne hathaway.... she was awful. not funny. immature. and that blue dress?! blah.
• king's speech wining best picture... like i said, i'm probably bias because i saw almost every over movie.
• anne hathaway's monologues.
• james franco not winning best actor.
• am i the only one that missed all the huge jackman jokes?

the sum it up.... james franco is my new hollywood boyfriend. we made it official tonight. anne hathaway... no thank you.

is this week over yet?

today i was supposed to wake up in logan. away from my life. away from my problems. ready for a full fun day of bridget.
instead i woke up in my bed. with no plan. no one to spend my day with. feeling sorry for myself. 

this week has been a rough one. i have no idea how it isn't over yet..... i faced the week with courage and optimism. that allllll came crashing down last night. a WINTER STORM WARNING stopped my in my tracks. so today i'm just sad. tired. annoyed. frustrated.

i'll get out of bed, unpack my weekend bag, get ready for the day, head to the mac counter, do some homework, play with the kiddos, and call it a day. {i'm sure there will be wallowing in self pity in there somewhere, & lots of diet coke.}

is it may 11th yet?

wednesday night thoughts.

• i have no idea how my room can get SO messy SO fast. monday afternoon my room was spotless. i've been home and awake for maybe 5 hours of the last 48. how does this happen?!
• two words. curve. ball.
• i have a sick obsession with shopping. when i was putting my clothes away tonight i realized i had 4 yellow cardigans that are almost the exact same color. only differences? what the are embellished with, and where the ruffles are located.
• it was a year ago all this was happening. i was convinced that i would never stop hurting. slowly the pain of it all went away. i'm happy to say that today i'm genuinely happy for him, and so grateful for my own personal progress through it all.
• there are few things i hate more than getting ready {you know hair, makeup, dressed the whole bit, i'm sure that surprises most of you}. there are even fewer things i hate more than getting ready on a day off.
• logan this weekend with bridge. snowshoeing, shopping, eating, aggie basketball. can't wait.
• i hope that whoever i marry got straight A's in ironing in the MTC.... not only do i hate ironing, but i'm awful at it. aw.ful. seriously, how do you iron a sleeve without creasing the other side of the sleeve?
• how in the h.e.double hockey sticks do you fold a fitted sheet?
• be patient with people. you just NEVER know the burdens they are silently bearing.
• i've made a goal not to swear. i never realized how much i swore until i stopped.
• i'm a neat freak. i need everything to be in it's proper place.
• i went to a utah basketball game last night. blah. nothing to be excited about.
• spring fever has hit. i'm dying for winter to be over. i want the yucky black piles of snow gone. i want to see bright colors everywhere i look. i want to put a skirt on, and not worry about tights. i'm sick of wearing coats. i want to be outside, enjoying nature. i want to feel the warmth of the sun on my body when i walk outside. i want to spend my saturdays walking up and down the aisles of farmer's market. green grass and flowers..... i better stop now before i burst into tears.
• monday i was reminded why public pools are so disgusting.
• i thought i bombed my humanities test last week, turns out i got a B. i'll take it.
• people are always asking me if i'm never going to have kids because of the sheer amount of time i spend with them. truth be told, i can't wait.
• "faith in something greater than ourselves enables us to do what we have said we will do, to press forward when we are tired or hurt or afraid, to keep going when the challenge seems overwhelming and the course entirely uncertain." -president hinckley

wishing i was anywhere but here...

i'd take any of the following places....

new york, new york

santee alley: los angles, ca

disneyland

lucerne, switzerland

maui, hawaii

disneyland.
seriously the happiest place on earth.

cabo san lucas, mexico

new port beach, ca

is winter over yet?!

no more bad days.

i'll be the first to admit i'm an emotion driven person.

what can i say? i'm a blue personality through and through.

soooo.....sometimes i have a hard time letting go,

and allowing the pieces to fall where they may.

i wish more than anything i could learn to chilax.

but alas, it's part of who i am.

good. or bad.

today was one of those days i was fighting to roll with the punches.

at lunch i ran into one of my favorite stores, bloomingssales.

i can across this little book, and since i'm a firm believer shopping makes me feel better,

i bought it.

for those of you who don't know, i get to spend the latter half of may in london and paris with my mom.

i figured this book could be my catch all of:

packing lists.

to do lists.

travel lists.

clothing lists.

DO NOT FORGET lists.

you know, all the things that go into preparing for a trip.

so no more bad days.

{and if i'm tempted to have one, i'll stare at this book}

heck! i'm going to europe!



riddle me this:

what is .....
28 days of love {divided by} 1 over it brooke?
one, but if you divide it by 2 you get 14 days of love.
which is just what i did.
i think i'm ready to be done playing this game. while i have many loves, i just don't have the steam to keep up with this.
i'm a busy girl.
and i want to be able to blog about other things.

although i did have a conversation yesterday that's worth a blog mention.

brooke: dan what are you doing for you wife for valentine's day?
dan: nothing. she told me not to do anything.
josh: dude, that doesn't mean anything.
brooke: right, she didn't REALLY mean don't do anything.
josh: it doesn't matter what she says. she wants something.
dan: well. she should learn to say what she really means then. that's not my fault.

priceless. right?

day 14:

probably my deepest love of all...

understanding there is an all knowing,

perfectly loving,

all powerful being who is perfectly aware of me.

i read this talk today, and remembered all over again that prayers are heard.

day 13:

the countless number of good people in my life.

since my birthday is on sunday i did most of my celebrating yesterday.

i sat at two different tables for two different celebrations yesterday....

as i sat at both tables i was over come with gratitude.

i have been SO blessed to have SO many good people in my life.

happy birthday to me!

day 12:

aubry.

someone else who's always been told they are too loud and talk too much.

we just kind of {ok REALLY} get each other.

not to mention she put together a helluva a birthday party for me tonight!

TOMORROW IS MY BIRTHDAY!

day 11:

my health.
i'm sorely missing it.

day 10:

dinner and girl talk with bridge.

{sorry no pic. my computer is being crazy, and i'm too tired to figure it out}

day 9:

putting my ipod on shuffle.

turning it up so i can't hear myself sing.

and belting out every surprise song that comes my way.

day 8:

remember how on day 1 i said some of my life isn't bloggable?

well it's still not.

but just know,

i'm bursting at the seams with happiness.

.....and i love it.

day 7:

we all knew this one was coming sooner or later....