things i'm thinkin

-i'm pretty sure i was written off as a friend by a friend.
-diet coke makes me happy.
-the sheer thought of school in two weeks is giving me anxiety.
-i think my hair is longer.
-i thought i looked pretty today. i love days that i feel that way.
-i'm more blessed then i deserve.
-i suddenly want to save money, and skimp on everything possible.
-i've kept a running check register of my account for the last 2 months. that's impressive for me.
-i have a "thing" for cute things, whatever they may be. a note book. a planner. a wallet. a makeup bag. if you have to have it, why not have a cute colorful one?
-i stink like smoke right now. yuck.
-i went 3 weeks without actually "doing" my hair, thank heavens i've got some natural curl going on.
-i think sometimes we are sick so we appreciate our health. lesson learned on friday.
-i got a new calling. sacrament meeting pianist. scary.
-i'm l.o.v.i.n.g. country music right now.
-i still have serious commitment issues.
-i love ashlee wray.
-staining the cabin part II this weekend. bring it.
-next time i'm out to eat with one of you, please control my portions.
-i love summer. i'm sad it's coming to an end.
-i can't wait for fall to be here and it's beautiful colors that it brings.
-i can't imagine the hurt. sorrow. emptiness. that would come from losing your mother. i'm so grateful to have mine.
-maga, i made the font bigger so you can read it.
-have a blessed week.

today.

even at the end of a less then perfect day, it never ceases to amaze me how incredibly blessed i am.

Moab....

"How Firm a Foundation"

I was on the planning committee for my singles ward's Super Activity. I vested my heart and soul into said activity. There were numerous late nights, countless meetings, endless trips to the grocery store, and many sleepless nights worrying about feeding 90 people. Every bit of work and stress was well worth it in the end. By the end of this extravaganza I was more tired then I ever thought possible. I have no doubt that I was sustained to make it through. With all that being set aside, I had the time of my life!

And this is how I felt by the end.

blessed.

I'M BAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAACK!

where have I been? and what have I been doing?

spending time with this lover. wearing red lips and loving it.

spending LOTS of time with her and going on adventures of all sorts.
concerts in the park with my mom & {best} friend.

getting to spend some time with my brother. {also missing him}

last but not least making {new} friends.

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My fellow bloggers! I'm so sorry for the absence of me... I promise good things are on their way with my blog. It's honestly been month, so much has happened, but at the same time I feel like nothing has changed, funny how life works. One thing I've learned during my hiatus, expect the unexpected. There's no sense in planning life, because life has it's own plan, and that plan always has a way of working it's self out.

loves,

b.j.

Sigh....

Saturday was a sad day for me.... I got in my first car accident.... worst part, it was my fault! Here's how it went down. Jill and I had just left her bridal shower in Holiday and were headed to Sandy to pick out Tuxedos. I was driving west on I-215, I was approaching construction and traffic was going from three lanes down to two. I was traveling in the middle lane, there was a semi truck to my right and I was a little worried about him coming over into my lane. {I was in his blind spot} I looked at the semi and then back to my lane, unfortunately when I looked back traffic had stopped.... I was going about 50 mph so I just hit my breaks but knew I wasn't going to stop in time... CRUNCH! I hit the car in front of me! Me and the car that I hit moved over to the right shoulder and waited for the cops to show up.... I was in tears, and cried for the rest of that day... I could make this a REALLY long story and go into some serious details, but I'll spare you. A $500 deductible, $120 ticket, $4,700 in damage to my car alone! Were moving on.... The moral of the story. "Unfortunately in the State of Utah it's illegal to hit the car in front of you." says Trooper Cox

Spring Fling...

I had so much fun, I couldn't even begin to explain pictures or narrow them down any further! Please refer all questions to me!

Hello!

{a little preview of Mexico}
Hello everyone, my name is Brooke Jensen... Please forgive the lack of blogging. I don't have a good excuse other then quite frankly I haven't really felt the blogging urge, the blogging fire in my belly is gone. There isn't much to report on school is just finishing up {for about a week and a half}. I get to retake math 1010, the joys of school. Work is somethin' else! It's not that I like it any more or less then I did at Draper, it's just a whole different ball game... denying loans never gets easier. I got my hair cut yesterday, I didn't take anything off the length but I lost a LOT of hair! {pictures to come} I will also at some point get a blog post of Mexico done... there is just so much to blog about and so little time! Yep, I became "that girl".

Life is honestly as crazy as every. It's constantly changing, as soon as I feel like I get my feet on the ground something else is changing. I guess that's par for the course. Jill is getting married in a few weeks which means another move for me... I could be more excited about living with Trent and Amy, but I'm ready for a little stability in my life. No new job, no moving, no more marriages... just normal boring life!

I really am so grateful for all the good things I have going in my life. I'm always over whelmed at the end of the day when I think of all my blessings! I know there is someone who is perfectly aware of me what is going on in my crazy life!

"Life isn't about waiting for the storm to pass, it's about learning to dance in the rain!"
Bring on the rain!.... I'M DANCING....{& loving it!}

I have lots of pictures {&} blogging to come!

Blah...Blah....Blah....

Seriously folks I've got NOTHING to blog about. So I thought I would post about the things I'm LOVING in life right now....
1. Whippy Cake, I purchased this gem and I L-O-V-E it! Whippy Cake has some of the most adorable things I've yet to lay my eyes on. If you need some fabulous accessories I suggest you check it out..... honestly I love it, and the owner is an absolute doll and joy to work with!

2. My new purse... I found it a Ross, the inside zipper was missing the pull thing, so they gave me 20% off, after leaving I found the pull thing in the bag so I was able to fix it! Best purchase ever! I love it, and love compliments I get while using it.... Ross wins yet again!

3. My vintage dress.... I'm going on a cruise in a couple of weeks and wanted to find the perfect dress for the captains dinner. I found this vintage jewel at a thrift store and couldn't love it more! I can't wait to wear it on my cruise!

4. The Morning Zoo... I don't know how I would handle my commute without these guys! They are absolutely hilarious, and I love listening to them.

5. Diet Coke... No surprise here. I just love the pick me up Diet Coke provides. I've been hooked on fountain DC for the last little while but recently converted to the bottle, it was like I fell in love all over again! I'll be the first to admit it... I'm absolutely addicted! DC is like that dependable friend that is there no matter what, at the end of a bad day a DC is waiting for me telling me, "Hey Brooke, you know what it's going to be ok, wanna know why? Becuase I'm here for your enjoyment, come hither, take a load off and slowly drink me down."

6. My ruffled white shirt... I have been SEARCHING high and low for a white ruffled shirt. I'd yet to find one that really spoke to me. While in Vegas I found it! When we first united I'm almost positive angles started singing, in fact I know they did. Then I tired it on, and then I knew, I knew that there was a reason this shirt and I found one another! I love, love, love it! I want to sleep in it I love it so much. Every time I put it on I feel like one sexy woman, and I fall in love all over again... it was a gift! (that I did have to pay for, but a gift none the less!)

I realize that so much of my happiness comes from wordily materialistic things... is that so bad?!

I hate to brag....

I just got back from the B-E-S-T weekend ever! A vacation was much needed and to make something wonderful even better, I got to go with these girls. Honestly I feel so blessed to call them my friends, I know they are the reason I'm the person I am today. I don't know how people make it through this life without friends like these girls.....

And now.... The Thought of Me!

1. Haven't done this in a while, bet your excited aren't you!?
2. I'm thinking of trying out "Flirty Girl Fitness". It looks sexy, fun, and have you seen the killer bods on the advertisement?! Not only that you can purchase your very own "fitness pole"! BHAHA!!!!
3. I got an awesome promotion yesterday that I've been working ever so hard to get. I will be leaving Draper, tear, I'm headed to the Research Park branch. My main objective of the transfer is to find a rich doctor seeking a wife.... (Ok just joking, but seriously if you know anyone looking.) In all seriousness I'm so excited about the transfer, I feel like I've worked really hard to get here.
4. Jill is getting married and she and Cameron are kicking me out. (In fact prior to the engagement I told Jill and Cameron once it was official I was moving out, not even 12 hours later they were engaged, bad timing? Maybe) Two options Pioneer Park, or Trent and Amy's. After talking to both Amy and Bozo the hobo I opted for Trent and Amy's. I'm so excited to move in, and even more excited that I'll get to stay in the ward I'm in now. (I'm going to church these days, that's how good it is.)
5. My co-workers are mad at me for leaving, so mad in fact that Chris said.... "I hope you get attacked by a whale and die on your way home." I think that Sea World story is getting to him.
6. Speaking of Sea World, what the heck! What a crappy way to die, being eaten alive by a killer whale! And second of all why would you make a pet out of anything with the work "killer" in it?
7. The Olympics have become my new best friend, I'm heart broken they are almost over.
8. I think I'm ready to do it.... I'm breaking up with Facebook. I find myself comparing myself to others all the time, and if I hear about ONE more person getting engaged I may just punch a baby. OK!?
9. Finding out an ex that you really loved is engaged reminds me of Indiana Jones and The Temple of Doom. You know, where they rip his heart out just just star at it beat. Yep... it's safe to say I now know how that guy feels.
10. Dear Husband, I know why I haven't found you.... I'm entirely too selfish and adore having new things. Look on the bright side, once we get married it should all be out of my system. In the mean time just keep saving!
Love, Your wife.
11. Favorite conversation as a result of the Olympics,
Dad: Watching ice dancing is like watching the Fugitive.
Jill: Really. Why is that?
Dad: You know, the train wreck in it.
hahahahhaha, still makes me laugh.
12. I stopped by my parents house today between commitments today. Do you want to know how I got to spend my Saturday? Cleaning up toilet paper. The little punks that did it better sleep with one eye open!
13. Oh Thursday I'm going to St. George for the weekend with my best friends, it couldn't possibly be coming at a better time. Will everyone do me a favor however, will you pray that I don't run into Kason?! Thanks.
14. Sin City baby! (Friday)
15. While on the travel note, 6 weeks from today I will be aboard a cruise on my way to Cabo! Can't come soon enough.

Moving Onward...

Where to begin? To be quite frank I don't have have news to report, so instead I thought I would blog about the many emotions I've experienced lately... please note this blog is mostly for journal purposes, and a way to articulate my thoughts, an outlet if you will.

With the start of the new year it's brought it's challenges and trials. I'm at a stage in my life where things are always changing, very uncertain times. Up until now everything in my life has been planned out on a specific time line. Post high school is a different story, life starts changing at different paces for different people. Not needing to go into details this aspect of life has had me down, wondering when God is going to send something wonderful my way. Events started piling one on top of another, and then it happened, I hit my breaking point. I hated my life and everything in it, and I couldn't manage to find anything good in it. Even the things that were good were changed into negative things. My glass was half empty.

One fateful night I met with my bishop, he gave me some inspired advice. Sometimes in life we have the calm before the storm. Other times in life we get the storm first. It's a way to be humbled and prepared. He gave me an incredible article to read and sent me on my way. As I read the article I realized that it was a message I, Brooke Jensen, needed to hear. "Look ahead and remember faith is always pointed to the future." Something inside me changed that night, I realized I can't control lots of things in my life, but I get to control how I react and feel about those things. I decided to stop being so irritated and down about the things I can't change, but rather just embrace them. The past couple of weeks I couldn't have been any happier, things were just going my way. The beautiful part of it all, nothing spectacular happened, I was just happy with MY life.

Moving forward is the theme of the article, not looking back and longing for the days of yesterday. I needed help realizing that. Most importantly I feel like I was being prepared for tonight's events. I know I've been so focused on a previous boyfriend and the time that I shared with him. I knew I wasn't supposed to marry him and moved on, kind of. I did what I was told to do, but not with faith. This article helped me see the error in my ways, and was the final push that I needed to let all the way go. Tonight I found out that, that same boyfriend is engaged, but it's ok. For a second the room started spinning around me, but then shortly there after I was overcome with peace. I have firm faith in my decision and most importantly faith in the road that lies ahead of me.

I don't know that my storm is over yet, but I do know that now I have a better idea of how to weather said storm. I don't need to look back any longer, only forward. Life is what you choose to make out of it, I have so many things to be grateful for, even the imperfections.

"I would like to suggest that we stop seeking the storms in life, and enjoy the sunlight."
-Gordon B. Hinckley

This I love...

I don't have my own, so I enjoy Jackson! :)

"Hello Bombshell"

A few months ago Victoria Secret came out with their latest life changing bra, the only difference.... This one really is! I knew I couldn't try it because then I would REALLY want it. Well I finally gave into temptation and decided to try it on. It was love at first wear, at that moment I knew I needed it. Well much to my dismay these amazing things cost an arm and a leg.... $50! YIKES! Sadly I put my new "bosom buddy" (HAHA! That is funny) down and left a very sad Brooke. Lucky for me I work at a credit union, no I didn't decided to steal the money, but open a share titled "Bombshell". Ten dollars from my paycheck gets put into that account almost as soon as I'm paid. After my first paycheck in March I will be marching right down to my neighborhood Victoria Secret and purchasing said bra!

Will I look like that in my bra?! Absolutely NOT! Will I be the happiest girl in America?! Most likely! :)

Things on my mind...

I know, I've been on a blogging hiatus. Unfortunately I don't have any good reason, other then I feel like nothing of consequence is going on in my life. I go to school Monday through Thursday by 7:00 a.m., yes seven, and also Tuesday and Thursday from 11:00 to 12:20. (fun lunch uh?!) I'm still working 40 hours a week. Naturally that doesn't leave much time to do other fun things... I wish I had something oh so excited to blog about, but alas I do not. So, I will blog about the boring things going on in my life. The real life, the not so glamorous things in everyday life. Now no one can complain about how boring their life is....
-Money has been tight lately! And by tight I mean, tighter then a fat person in spandex! I think I've made it through my biggest expenses, but I'm incredibly depressed every time I look at my account. I think I need to seriously revisit a budget, and pray that I'll win the lottery.
-I feel so blessed to have work right now, not only work, but a job that I really do enjoy. Things aren't perfect there, and there is one thing that could make it better, but I choose to ignore the Village Idiot most days.
-Yesterday Verizon Wireless sent me over the edge, I did something I've never done. I called the customer service department and vented my frustration. I know I can be an outspoken person, but when I'm upset I have a hard time getting myself to say something. So it felt oh so good to say something yesterday! Good job Brooke.
-I feel like I live alone right now, which makes me sad, but I'm grateful I have a house. Actually in general I feel quite alone. I feel like I'm in need of a special someone, wither that means a best friend or a boyfriend. It's ok though, I'm praying for someone and I'll take whatever I'm given. I know prayers are answered.
-I love the pink, red, and hearts that are every where right now, not because I like Valentine's day, but because it signifies my day of birth! In case you didn't know I L-O-V-E my birthday... I just need something to do now.
-Haiti.... breaks my little heart.
-I've decided that I'm quite a sass. Not because of my attitude, but because of my clothes. Judge me if you'd like for being self confident, maybe even a tad arrogant, but I decided this week I really like my clothes. It's joy in the simple things in life right?
-Math is a real struggle this semester... the fact that's it's at 7am doesn't help, but I think my teacher is 101 years old. I concentrate so much on the fact that he is still living that I tend to not absorb the information being presented. Moving on to English there are so REAL characters in there. I think 90% of my class decided to try college out the day class started. Which kind of makes me mad. I had to take a placement test to get into English 1010, I didn't score high enough so I had to take Writing 990. How did these crazies place into that class!? BOO!
-I did something brave, three weeks ago. I finally told Kason I couldn't be even a friend to him anymore. It's so hard letting go of people who have met so much to you. Kason was my first real love and moving on has been a task. Sometimes to move forward we have to be willing to let go 100%. I wish him nothing but the best in life.
-I feel very grateful for my friends. Life has taken us all in very different ways, and it's incredible to me how close most of us have stayed. We've lost one, but I think it's been her loss not ours.
-Anyone has Haggerman's sugar cookies!? Yum-e!
-I recently found a quote that I really like, nay love, "We are only as happy as we make up our minds to be." Abe Lincoln.
-I'm terribly self conscious of my spelling. I've never been to good at it.
-Why is it that my bronzer, hairspray, and toothpaste all run out on the same day?! :(
This is it folks, all I have to offer!